X-Rays, Roberto Bolaño
If we look with X-rays at the patients house,
we'll see the ghosts of books in silent shelves
or piled in the hall or on the nightstands and tables.
We'll also see a small notebook with drawings, lines
and arrows
that diverge and intersect: they are voyages in death's
company. But death, despite its arrogant aide-memoir,
still hasn't won. The X-rays tell us time
is expanding and thinning like the tail of a comet
inside the house. Life still gives its best
fruits. And as the sea promised Jaufre Rudel
the vision of love, so this house near the sea promises
its dweller the dream of the destroyed and constructed tower.
If we look, however, with X-rays inside of the man,
we'll see bones and shadows: ghosts of fiestas
and landscapes in motion as if viewed from an airplane
in tailspin. We'll see the eyes he saw, the lips
his fingers brushed, a body emerged
from a snowstorm. And we'll see the naked body,
just as he saw it, and the eyes and the lips he brushed,
and we'll know that there's no cure.
Translated by Laura Healy